Short Story Sunday.

When it rains I don’t feel the pain anymore.

It’s an escape from my mind, my memories.

The water washes over me with a sense of healing.

I used to be so scared of storms, the rumble of the thunder while I sleep. The brightness of the Lightning as it strikes all around us.

Now I’m one with it. The storms inside me, inside my head can escape with the noises around me. I love the distraction, the feel of the rain, the rush of adrenaline as I get a bit too close this time.

I never used to be like this, on the edge constantly. I used to be shy and giddy and smile. I would smile so much my cheeks would hurt. I miss it, I would take the pain of my own laughter any day over the pain I feel now.

Everyday I feel like my heart is shattering into a million pieces because of him. A whisper of his name and I fall apart and crawl back into my shell, I just can’t come to terms with this new life I’m now supposed to live.

Four damn years of my life consisted of that name. It was the center of my universe, my whole goddamn world, the one thing that gave me constant comfort. Now it’s just a memory, a whisper that comes once in a while by the friends I once had who only feel sorry for me now.

Do they know though? Do they know what it feels like to have your heart completely ripped out of your chest? Do they know what it’s like to lose someone like that? No, of course not because obviously if they did they would have nothing to say to me.

With each drop of rain, I make myself remember one last time because once this storm is over, so is that part of my life. I won’t let it control me anymore. I can’t let it take me down, I have to get through this.

A year ago today we were leaving for college, we had the whole world in front of us and our whole lives to be together. The night before he had asked me to spend every minute of it with him. He made me a promise, he gave me everything I wanted.

Today, I was in a mood though. You know just having one of those days where I wanted to push the boundaries a little. We hadn’t slept much the night before. We were too wrapped up in each other to even think about the morning. I was tired, it was muggy, I didn’t want to be on this long road trip in the rain.

I put my bare feet on his dashboard and smiled when I saw the picture of me sticking up. His favorite senior picture of mine because he says it captures my smile he loves so much. If he only knew the only reason my smile was like that, was because he was in the background making me laugh.

I turned Florida Georgia Line up and sat back in my seat and stared out the window.

If you could dream up the perfect person, that’s what I have sitting beside me. Aiden Lewis. 6’1, a body you can’t keep your hands off of, and the greenest emerald eyes I have ever seen. His dark brown wavy hair is the type you fist your fingers through when he’s making love to you, because it looks incredible when it’s messy. I fell in love with him the moment I tripped on my own two left feet freshman year. If you asked me how I felt now I wouldn’t even know what to say, because I’m not just in love anymore, my heart and soul are completely his.

That’s exactly why I don’t know why I kept pushing him today, Aiden does nothing but love me fiercely. I could tell I was starting to get to him, he was just as agitated as I was with every mile marker to our future we made.

I was distracting him with my silent words and the fact that I wouldn’t tell him what was wrong because hell I didn’t even know, I didn’t have an answer. I was being a girl, I was playing games, I was being stupid and arguing and saying things I didn’t mean because I could.

Because he loved me.

And then my world completely broke.

I realized too late that he hadn’t stopped at that red light, that he had been distracted by….me. That’s when I looked at him and he was looking at me, so scared and trying to do everything to protect me. I could see it in his eyes. I cried. We both didn’t move. In ten seconds I said I love you, I said I’m sorry and then everything went dark.

I woke up, he didn’t.

He’s gone, and apart of me will always be gone with him, probably all of the better parts.

I shove the pictures, the love letters, the old t-shirts with the smell of him still lingering and I put them in the wooden box he carved our initials in when we were  sixteen-years old. I place them under the bed where so many memories were made.

I tell myself until I am ok again, I have to keep it closed.

The pain will go away and I will find myself smiling instead of crying at the thought of our memories together, the life and the love that was cut too short. That’s when I can look back in this box and remember without having my heart ripped in half every time I look at the ridiculous “Go to prom with me, beautiful” sign he made me that only turned into the best night of our lives.

I won’t need the rain anymore because the tears won’t fall as much and the pain won’t be as strong.

The Other Girl.

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Officer Miranda Rader of the Harmony, Louisiana PD is known for her honesty, integrity, and steady hand in a crisis—but that wasn’t always so. Miranda comes from the town of Jasper, a place about the size of a good spit on a hot day, and her side of the tracks was the wrong one. She’s worked hard to earn the respect of her coworkers and the community.

When Miranda and her partner are called to investigate the murder of one of the town’s most beloved college professors, they’re unprepared for the brutality of the scene. This murder is unlike any they’ve ever investigated, and just when Miranda thinks she’s seen the worst of it, she finds a piece of evidence that chills her to the core: a faded newspaper clipping about that terrible night fifteen years ago. The night she’d buried, along with her past and the girl she’d been back then. Until now that grave had stayed sealed…except for those times, in the deepest part of the night, when the nightmares came: of a crime no one believed happened and the screams of the girl they believed didn’t exist.

Then another man turns up dead, this one a retired cop. Not just any cop—the one who took her statement that night. Two murders, two very different men, two killings that on the surface had nothing in common—except Miranda.

**Thank you to Netgalley and the Publisher for providing me a copy of The Other Girl in exchange for an honest review.**

4/5 Stars!



Ok, my first question is why have I not read an Erica Spindler novel before!? Seriously, The Other Girl was SO good and I need more of this writing!

Miranda Rader is a detective for the Harmony, Louisiana police department. Murder scenes are usually no big deal when you’ve seen it all before, except for the murder of the towns most successful and loved college professor. Gruesome and no doubt a revenge crime, Miranda and her partner have quite a case on their hands. Shortly after, clippings from a nightmare of Miranda’s past show up, and then fingerprints and another murder. They all only have one thing in common, Miranda.

I couldn’t put this book down, I was reading through these pages like rapid fire! The Other Girl flows so well and it’s just begging to be read.

Miranda was such a fascinating character to me, she grew up in a trailer park in Jasper, Louisiana. She had two older brother’s and an attitude to go right a long with it.

Smoking, drinking, lying…

This book is really about following Miranda’s journey, past and present and I loved learning about her wild teenage years and what happened fifteen years ago that got her to where she is now. The author wrote a very strong female character and I really appreciated it.

There’s so much suspense and longing for answers while reading this. For me, a mystery is all about just wanting to figure out what happens next and what that big twist will do to you. Even though I predicted the ending a little bit, it still didn’t lose it’s suspense feeling which is what I was looking for.

Plus, there’s some romance sprinkled in-between these pages and it was hot! I was so surprised by it but it totally got two thumbs up by me for throwing that curveball in there.

I thought The Other Girl had a pretty solid pace, the only thing I thought was a bit of a bummer was the ending. I just wanted so much more out of it, I wanted to know what the aftermath for everyone involved was, but more on how they felt about it if that makes sense. It was a bit rushed and I just didn’t feel closure I guess is what I’m trying to get at.

Overall though, I really enjoyed this book and it’s a great story. Now the only thing I need to do is read more from this author, she defiantly writes my kind of mysteries! The Other Girl should be on your radar for August!

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The Story Of Us.

“How much can a man take before he breaks? When do the dreams stop giving him comfort and he has to accept that he’ll never see her again, touch her again or hear her say “I love you” again? “

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1,843 days. That’s how long I survived in that hellhole. They tried to break me, but I resisted. And I owe it all to the memory of warm summer nights, the scent of peaches, and the one woman who loved me more than I ever deserved to be loved. Now, I’ll do anything to get back to her.

Only Shelby Eubanks isn’t the girl I left behind all those years ago. She’s someone else, a stranger. My Shelby-my little green-eyed firecracker-would never give up her dreams, would never disappear into her mother’s ambitions. But I won’t give up on her. On us. I may be broken, and scarred, and not the man I used to be, but I will do whatever it takes to remind her of the story of us.

5/5 Stars!

**Thank you to Netgalley and the Publisher for providing me a copy of The Story Of Us in exchange for an honest review.**



Oh my goodness, so heartbreakingly beautiful. I couldn’t put It down!

The Story Of Us follows Shelby and Eli. They come from completely different sides of the track but that doesn’t stop them from being young and in love. Shelby’s dream is to be a dancer, Eli is in the Marines. They thought they had their whole future figured out together, but as always, nothing seems to work out that way.

Now Eli’s team is suddenly deploying early and Shelby’s heart and dreams are now shattered. Shelby doesn’t know that the only thing that kept Eli alive for five years in hell was her and that he will stop at nothing to show her that, even if he has to break In the process.

“I wonder if she still thinks of me as much as I do her. I wonder if she knows she’s the only reason I’m still breathing, still fighting, and still holding on.”

Captivated, that’s how I felt while reading The Story Of Us. I didn’t think my heart could break over and over again, but these words…

They get to you!

This was my first Tara Sivec book and I had no idea she was going to gut me like this! What got to me the most was the strength of these characters. Shelby and Eli are so strong as individuals, even when they are weak. Even when their hearts and body’s were breaking, they still never gave up and did everything for the sake of love.

They were both also the most selfless characters I have ever met. Everything Shelby did, she did for Eli and his family. To protect him at all costs. Everything Eli did, he did to get back home to Shelby and to show her they can make it work. They were just beautiful together and I really enjoyed these characters.

“He makes me feel whole, he closes up wounds while at the same time ripping them wide open…and I never want it to stop.”

It’s just honestly an unforgettable story. The love, the loss, the angst. Even the writing and the perfect way it flows, it has everything and I never realized how much I was missing a romance story that would rip me right open.

It’s also full of twists and turns that got the plot really going towards the end, I even found myself surprised by some of it which is always a good thing.

As much as it is beautiful and sweet, it’s also a tough read and it deals with a lot of  hard situations but I think that only made me love it even more. And the ending!? ALL THE FEELS! The ending made me so happy!

“I love you … Only you. Always you.”

I have no clue why I haven’t read anything from this author yet, her writing is totally my style! Well after reading The Story Of Us, I will defiantly be finding more to dive into!

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Wedding Diaries; Fun Update!

455 days until ‘I Do’!

The Wedding process has been super fun lately! 

I went to a Wedding Expo back in January and I won a Mary Kay Bridal facial party for me and my bridesmaids! We just went to it last Saturday and let me tell you, my face has never felt smoother! Plus I learned a lot about skin health (some stuff I didn’t want to know about at all). Like apparently we all have eyelash mites!? YEAH! I’m sure your face looks like mine did when I looked it up and totally had nightmares lol.

Overall it was super fun and I think it’s getting the girls even more excited for all the stuff to come! I’ve been trying so hard to come up with different things that everyone can be included in and so far, with making plans I think I’m doing a pretty good job at it.

GUESS WHAT!?

I picked a date for my wedding dress shopping!

YEP! I’m freaking out! So I made an appointment for October 7th at a place called The Wedding Shoppe. It has AMAZING reviews and I guess they have really unique brands just for their store and without the expensive price tags! I’m really excited and I have a gut feeling that I will find my dress there just by talking to one of the consultants and looking at what they offer :).

I also made my bridal party appointments for David’s Bridal at the end of September! Time to find some champagne dresses! I’m not picky at all and I want them to be comfortable so I’m going to let them pick the styles they want, as long as the dresses are all the same shade of champagne. I can’t wait to see my girls shine!

My first engagement photos are one month away! I am so excited, I went shopping today with my mom to find a dress to wear for them. I’m obsessed with the one I picked! But it made me realize how bad I need a tan lol, It makes me look so white! Hopefully I can get the approval from the photographer to be able to share the session on my blog so you all can see them!

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I also found the cutest things while shopping today and my mom practically threw it all in her cart and wouldn’t let me leave without any of them lol. She is adorable and is totally obsessed with this whole wedding!

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I am obsessed with the bottle that says “Today I marry the one I love” like how stinking cute is that!? I think it would look perfect on the card and guestbook table!

Well that’s all I have for now! Hopefully my next post will include engagement pictures! I can’t wait for them :).

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Curveball.

“I want to know your secrets,” she whispers.

I place my hand over hers, keeping it firmly against my chest. “I want to know yours.”

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Shakespeare believed there was always humor in tragedy and tragedy in humor.
My life proved his theory as fact.

At eighteen I was a single parent moving to this small town to be with the man I loved. The one who was supposed to love and cherish me in return.
Finding out he had a wife was tragic.

Remaining in love with him in spite of her was more tragic.

My mom and best friend setting me up on a long string of blind dates was an ongoing tragedy.
Nine years later, I’ve learned to see the humor in most situations.
My mom and best friend setting me up on disastrous blind dates.

My son’s jokes.

The fire alarm going off each time I cook.
My constant bright spot always adding to the humor was my son, Hayden. But when Hayden had a life-threatening allergic reaction, the man who came to help my little boy became my own savior. His laugh, his smile, and the way his eyes lit up when he spoke to my son made him a beacon of light in both our lives.
But I wasn’t the only one who noticed him.

When I began having feelings for the man my best and only friend had fallen for, I knew following my heart would once again lead to a fresh round of heartbreak.
Love led me to this town.

Lies kept me there.
Would history repeat itself?

Or had life just thrown me another Curveball?

4/5 Stars!



One word: Coen! Holy crap did he freaking steal my heart you guys!

Ella is a single mother who strives for perfection. She wants to be the perfect mother to her nine-year-old son Hayden. She wants to excel in every way possible at her job in marketing.

“When you give your heart away, there’s no way to fully get it back. Pieces will be left behind, lies will drill holes, deceit will cause cracks, and the feeling of being unwanted will create a doubt your heart was ever whole.”

What she defiantly doesn’t want is to become a serial dater while trying to replace the one man who she just can’t let go of. That is until her son Hayden has a serious allergic reaction to peanuts and the one man who came to the rescue was not who she was expecting. More than that though, she defiantly didn’t expect to have feelings for him.

 Oh Curveball, I did not expect you! When I first started reading this book, I have to admit I just couldn’t get into it and I really have no clue why. But then I met Coen, the hunky as hell firefighter and I decided to stick with it and I’m so happy I did!

I liked Ella, I really did but sometimes she just made me want to rip my hair out. She tried TOO DAMN HARD at everything! All I wanted to say to her is “Girl, you need a night out with me to loosen up!” Seriously, she needed a chill pill. But she was an amazing mother and she had a huge heart so how could I not like her? In the end, I loved the decisions she made and that she finally did what she wanted to do for once.

“Will you keep looking at me like I’m yours if I tell you there’s nothing to worry about?”

“You just haven’t been paying attention. I’ve been looking at you like you’re mine since I first saw you.”

Coen though, he is my love! I could not have asked for a better male character than this man. Everything he did was swoon worthy from the way he helped Hayden with playing baseball, to his panty dropping eyes and smile. This man had it all and what I would have done to be Ella a few times ;). Plus he was Italian and had that huge loud, nosey family thing going for him. Seriously, this guy was it.

More than that though, the love story was beautiful! Coen helped Ella so much with finding out what she really wanted out of life. He brought her happiness and smiles and comfort. I was so happy when he would make her fight for things and make her ask for what she wanted, he really was exactly what she needed.

Curveball defiantly lived up to it’s name, it had some pretty big curveball’s thrown my way. Especially towards the end, I think my mouth dropped open more than a few times and I have to say I enjoyed the twists. It flowed easily and It had some quotes that really jumped out at me. I longed for more at the end though, I needed a longer ending or a more in depth one I should say.

“I love him because he saved me. Because he makes me acknowledge my feelings rather than feel ashamed of them, and he makes me feel calm and safe. Two things I haven’t felt since I was seventeen.”

This book is perfect for romance lover’s like myself though. It has a lot of feels, major angst and you will be totally captivated by Coen, so all you ladies who love those male characters as much as I do, you must meet this man!

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Let’s Talk Book Quotes.

Words.

Words are probably the most powerful thing ever. They have the ability to make you feel so much.

Make you feel beautiful, make you feel worthy and accepted.

Make you feel shameful, make you feel heartbroken and disappointed.

I think that’s why I love reading so much, Authors have such a beautiful way of expressing their feelings with all sorts of words.

So let’s talk book quotes! Don’t you just love them? I know I do, I highlight like rapid fire when I’m reading because there are so many quotes hidden in those pages that get to me.

Here’s a line up of some of my favorites that have stuck with me over the years or even recently opened up all the feels.

“But if the thought of losing him forever makes you lose your breath, if living without him seems impossible now, then don’t let him go.”

-Revelry; Kandi Steiner.

“I thought loving someone meant letting go, but by the time I learned that loving someone means fighting for them too, it was too late.”

-Swear On This Life; Renee Carlino.

“Just because someone hurts you doesn’t mean you can simply stop loving them. It’s not a person’s actions that hurt the most. It’s the love. If there was no love attached to the action, the pain would be a little easier to bear.”

-It Ends With Us; Colleen Hoover.

“You can’t re-create the first time you promise to love someone or the first time you feel loved by another. You cannot relive the sensation of fear, admiration, self-consciousness, passion, and desire all mixed into one because it never happens twice. You chase it like the first high for the rest of your life.”

-Before We Were Strangers; Renee Carlino.

“When I’m with you, it’s electric. My entire body is on fire, and I feel alive. But that’s because you’re dangerous, not because we’re supposed to be together.”

-Corrupt Me; Jillian Quinn.

“It turned out a whiskey stain was just as permanent as ink, and I wondered if I would ever truly wash myself clean. Or if I even wanted to.”

-A Love Letter To Whiskey; Kandi Steiner.

“Choices are something we take for granted until we no longer have any options, and then we want to go back in time.”

-Say You’ll Stay; Corinne Michaels.

“I had given my heart to a man who had no intention of giving his to me. As much as I wanted to believe that he could, I wasn’t sure he was capable of such things. Because he is darkness. He is the devil …and I love him. Devastating.”

-Blackbird; Molly McAdams.

“And how do you know she’s the one?” I whisper, wiping the tears spilling down my face. He brings a hand up to my cheek and caresses over it with his thumb. “I know because, when she’s not with me, I feel like I lack oxygen, and even when I am with her, I feel like I can’t breathe enough.”

-Kaleidoscope Hearts; Claire Contreras.

“I’ve always seen you, angel. From the moment you found me, I’ve seen nothing but you.”

-Bared To You; Sylvia Day.

“They say time heals all wounds, but I disagree. Grief never ends, it just changes. You learn how to live with it, rebuild yourself from the shattered pieces around you until you’re whole again, but you will never be the same. The light is gone. The flavors. The laughter. You become a stranger who you used to know. But then one day you wake up, and you find the dark has been penetrated by a spark in the shape of a slip of woman with brown eyes that could drive a man to perdition.”

-Love Me In The Dark; Mia Asher.

“I love him because he saved me. Because he makes me acknowledge my feelings rather than feel ashamed of them, and he makes me feel calm and safe. Two things I haven’t felt since I was seventeen.”

-Curveball; Mariah Dietz.

“Don’t judge each other. We all have our own shit. Keep your eyes on yours and your nose out of everyone else’s unless you’re invited in. And when you get the invitation, help, don’t judge.”

-Bright Side; Kim Holden.



If you thought I was a hopeless romantic before, then you must be a believer by now! Mushy gushy as hell and you bet I get the chills just from re-reading these! 

ALL THE FEELS.

I love it :)!

Which ones are you favorite?

What’s some of your favorite quotes? Maybe I’ll do another feature and put it in there!

Donovan (Face-Off Series, #3).

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As the starting goaltender for the Philadelphia Flyers, Carter Donovan has the toughest position on the team. He’s hot as puck, a caveman in bed, and a beast on the ice. But after another season of missing the playoffs, Carter is taking the off-season harder than normal.

Just when Carter needs a change of luck, his teammate sets him up with Sydney Carroway, a famous romance author who likes to play games of her own. And after a blind date gone wrong, the dark-haired beauty has him wrapped around her finger. Sydney tortures Carter with her dirty words and pictures, thrives off the steamy conversations that give him a never-ending case of blue balls. Carter knows it. But he can’t get enough.

It might be Carter’s job to protect the net when he’s on the ice, but when it comes to Sydney, he needs more than a killer glove save to defend his heart.

5/5 Stars!

**Thanks so much to the Author for providing me with a copy of Donovan in exchange for an honest review.**



Jillian Quinn created two characters that will forever be my favorite. Carter and Sydney will have you laughing, crying and blushing through every chapter. I love them :).

Carter Donovan is the starting goalie for the Philadelphia Flyers. He’s taking not making the play-off’s personally and just can’t seem to get out of a funk lately. That is until Sydney Carroway, a romance author of all things smut comes barreling into his life. Sydney loves playing games with her men, how else does she get inspiration for her kick-ass novels? It’s all fun and games until reality and secrets take over, and sacrifices have to be made when it comes to their hearts.

“He is one sexy hunk of man. I could let him take me right here in this hallway and have the best night of my life, or I can wait him out, make him beg me for more.”

I don’t know what there is to love more than a great hockey romance. I loved every book in this series so far, but I think Sydney Carroway has to be my favorite character! This girl is like a breath of fresh air, she says whatever comes to her mind, including needing to know every different word there is for a mans penis. Sydney had me laughing so much throughout this book and I just couldn’t get enough. She is defiantly the book bestfriend that you always wanted!

Then there is Carter Donovan, what a hunk of a man! Tattoo’s all over his sculpted body, facial hair that you can’t help but want to feel everywhere. Carter is mysterious, rough and such a caveman but he will most defiantly steal your heart when he opens up. Plus, it’s just a cherry on top that he is from my home state Michigan, that makes me love him that much more.

“I have never had a problem getting laid. All I have to do is dial one of the girls on my list, and they come running over like domino’s pizza hot, ready and here within thirty minutes.”

The angst and flirtation in this book is addicting, Jillian certaintly brought the heat up a notch and I LOVED it. Just when you think Sydney will stop playing games and give in a little bit, she pulls herself away. You’ll be chugging your wine and gripping your kindle trying not to yell at her to just give them what they both want.

As much as I love all that sexual tension, I also have to have some depth to my romance books and boy did I get it! Emotions were tugging at my heart more than once when the secrets and the pasts started pouring out from these two characters. Donovan had everything I loved all wrapped up between that sexy cover!

“No more rules. No more games. You are mine.”

If you haven’t read the Face-Off series yet, then you really need to! I have felt a connection with every character in each book and Jillian brings them with her every time she writes a new one. It’s one of my favorite things about her writing since I get so attached to all of them. Make sure to check out Parker, Kane, and Donovan! Plus there’s even more to come :)!

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